Tumbling into bed and making passionate love, I felt as hot and sultry as the air around us. "you're gorgeous", Kevin panted. "So are you", I moaned. Wasn't this the perfect ending to the perfect holiday? Because I was a 19 year old student from North London, and i'd met Kevin on a two and half month holiday while visting my aunt on the beautiful, sunkissed island of Trinidad.
Kevin was 30 and although there was a substantial age difference it was never an issue. He worked in a bank and was planning on emigrating to London himself soon. We met on the beach, spending most of our time swimming or with him showing me the hottest nightclubs in town.
Four days before I was due to fly home, we were at Kevins two bedroom apartment. What started out as a simple meal ended with us sharing our first steamy night together...after that moment of passion I sat up from Kevin and began to cry. Confusion whirled inside me like a tornado, picking emotions and putting them in places they didnt belong.
what was i doing??...what about Maxwell??...I'm engaged!
Maxwell was the same age as me. He was sweet, funny and charming you know, the guy you want to take home to meet mum. Well, he was waiting for me back at our home in London. We were together for two years and our wedding was only seven months away. I told Kevin that I had someone back home. But he did'nt care and just told me that I was the only one for him and only he could truly sweep me off my feet, and in the time we were together he really did.
But even so, I dried my eyes and put my clothes back on in the knowledge that Maxwell was the one I was going to marry. So there was no guilt. I'd go back home, pretend this naughty "little blip" had never happened.
When I got back home it was clear Max had missed me as he tried to tempt to bed, I hesitated..."whats wrong?" he asked. "I'm tired," I lied. Truth was I just could'nt shake the thoughts of Kevin and that night. But I really wanted to forget him and move on with my future husband, so I threw myself into creating the perfect wedding. Four weeks on, i was driving when my phone rang....Kevin. "Im moving to London in three months, can we meet?" I dont think I even let him finish asking me before I said yes. Suddenly I wanted him more than ever, I wanted him so badly it scared me. I knew that I should'nt, mustn't....we'll just be friends, I convinced myself.
So when we met, that desire sprang back to life. "You look great" he smiled, his feelings hadn't changed either. I tried to maintain some distance, making smalll talk about Kevins shared flat and my wedding plans. Yet as I went to go back to Max, Kevin pleaded for us to meet again. "OK", I mummbled...what can I say, I was weak...a coward even, too cowardly to say NO or tell Max I was having doubts about getting hitched. I continued to secretly meet Kevin and our sexually charged conversations led to us picking up from that night in Trinidad. As cruel as it sounds when I was with Kevin any thoughts of Max simply disappeared in the shadows.
- SistaLova
Friday, September 08, 2006
Monday, September 04, 2006
Writing Is Therapy...
Life has been...a bit of a bitch lately, making it hard for me to write something that makes sense and not like a crazy black woman. So excuse me while i have a "moment" to vent.
How did we end up here again?
Seems like arriving here is becoming a trend
In this situation we just can’t win
All good at the beginning . . . fucked up at the end
Two hearts are now broken just because they wouldn’t bend
You could of been my one true love
But right now I dont even want you as a friend
This time round I refuse to contemplate shoulda woulda coulda been’s
And play each other’s heartstrings like violins
Simply put...
My patience with this is wearing thin
And this chapter has now come to its natural end.
* Gabrielle you were right, I feel better already.
- SistaLova
How did we end up here again?
Seems like arriving here is becoming a trend
In this situation we just can’t win
All good at the beginning . . . fucked up at the end
Two hearts are now broken just because they wouldn’t bend
You could of been my one true love
But right now I dont even want you as a friend
This time round I refuse to contemplate shoulda woulda coulda been’s
And play each other’s heartstrings like violins
Simply put...
My patience with this is wearing thin
And this chapter has now come to its natural end.
* Gabrielle you were right, I feel better already.
- SistaLova
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Maturity
I think I’m becoming more and more mature everyday. I mean obviously I’m still that goofy, nonsensical girl but I think I’m starting to understand the world. As random as that statement seems I feel like I’ve found my place. I’m not saying that in finding my place I’m pleased with wherever I am now, because that’s not the case. I still have a lot of things to accomplish but I’ve summarised my whole character… and I think I understand why I’m the way I am.
Like, I used to get frustrated with myself, I used to despise my kind nature. I despised it because it was such a natural thing for me to do… be nice. You know for some people it takes a lot more than human nature to be nice to a person. And that’s an issue I was dealing with…. my kindness.
Kindness can be despised… I know that for sure. I despised it because I felt like there were times when I was being taken advantage of… I can’t describe it fully, but I felt like there were things that people did to me that they could not get away with elsewhere. And this was down to my kind nature… I wanted to be tough and unapproachable so that I wouldn’t be taken advantage of. I felt like my kindness was being taken for weakness and I didn’t like it.
Days and years of being nice to people and having my kind gestures thrown back into my face. To tell you the truth it hurt, it hurt so bad I wanted to cut off everybody I spoke to… at one point I did… I stopped talking, stopped socialising, stopped being me. Yes, I was depressed but I felt that by doing what I did I wouldn’t be hurt again.
It worked. It actually worked, but at what price. I had no friends… people would always ask for me and ask about me through my family… because they hadn’t seen me in so long but I didn’t care for them anymore. I’d had enough. My family were my friends, I guess it brought me closer to my siblings but coherently drew me from my friends.
I forgot how to socialise… I didn’t know what to say to a person, I didn’t know what to do. So parties, gatherings, and meetings basically, any event going on where I would have to talk was out of the question. All I would do is nod my head or give people a faint smile.
I thought I was hiding all this but in fact I was being blatantly obvious… such a drastic change from how I used to be. I guess mother’s intuition didn’t help either. My mum knew something was wrong from the get go… this upset me even more because I didn’t think I was showing any signs of withdrawal at home. But I guess I was. And so I confided in her as you do… and I explained how I felt.
Mothers are so wise and to them we owe mostly everything… the real gratitude goes to God obviously. She said to me that I am the way I am, nothing can be done about it. Yes, I might try and change but if that’s not the way God has made me, I can’t possibly change. In as much as I didn’t want to agree with her… I had to. My personality, my kind nature… even better my social ability… however much has been affected by society, still won’t defer me from being the way God made me. I refer back to that notion any time I’m upset…. well it helps me. I think I’m becoming more and more mature every day……
- Gabrielle
Like, I used to get frustrated with myself, I used to despise my kind nature. I despised it because it was such a natural thing for me to do… be nice. You know for some people it takes a lot more than human nature to be nice to a person. And that’s an issue I was dealing with…. my kindness.
Kindness can be despised… I know that for sure. I despised it because I felt like there were times when I was being taken advantage of… I can’t describe it fully, but I felt like there were things that people did to me that they could not get away with elsewhere. And this was down to my kind nature… I wanted to be tough and unapproachable so that I wouldn’t be taken advantage of. I felt like my kindness was being taken for weakness and I didn’t like it.
Days and years of being nice to people and having my kind gestures thrown back into my face. To tell you the truth it hurt, it hurt so bad I wanted to cut off everybody I spoke to… at one point I did… I stopped talking, stopped socialising, stopped being me. Yes, I was depressed but I felt that by doing what I did I wouldn’t be hurt again.
It worked. It actually worked, but at what price. I had no friends… people would always ask for me and ask about me through my family… because they hadn’t seen me in so long but I didn’t care for them anymore. I’d had enough. My family were my friends, I guess it brought me closer to my siblings but coherently drew me from my friends.
I forgot how to socialise… I didn’t know what to say to a person, I didn’t know what to do. So parties, gatherings, and meetings basically, any event going on where I would have to talk was out of the question. All I would do is nod my head or give people a faint smile.
I thought I was hiding all this but in fact I was being blatantly obvious… such a drastic change from how I used to be. I guess mother’s intuition didn’t help either. My mum knew something was wrong from the get go… this upset me even more because I didn’t think I was showing any signs of withdrawal at home. But I guess I was. And so I confided in her as you do… and I explained how I felt.
Mothers are so wise and to them we owe mostly everything… the real gratitude goes to God obviously. She said to me that I am the way I am, nothing can be done about it. Yes, I might try and change but if that’s not the way God has made me, I can’t possibly change. In as much as I didn’t want to agree with her… I had to. My personality, my kind nature… even better my social ability… however much has been affected by society, still won’t defer me from being the way God made me. I refer back to that notion any time I’m upset…. well it helps me. I think I’m becoming more and more mature every day……
- Gabrielle
Monday, August 14, 2006
My Emotions
I can only write about what I’m feeling, only truly express my emotions concerning an important matter. I’ve done some soul searching, been in constant thought about my future, and finally, after all my deep moments I can come to the conclusion that maybe its not necessary to know every single thing that’s going to happen in your future. Its not necessary to try and plan every little detail, because simply and truly not everything is going to run as clockwork… that’s just the way life is.
He came yesterday, after how many months of waiting for him to arrive. I don’t believe in love at first sight but when I saw him, I knew something had to happen between us, if we just became friends, or we became partners… I knew something had to happen. Its so hard to explain. When I used to see guys I used to get this weird feeling in my stomach and that used to happen when they were really cute, or when I hadn’t seen a guy I liked in ages or something, now… that doesn’t happen. Its like all those feelings I used to have, they’ve disappeared. But its like if I see a guy now, I can acknowledge how cute he is without being phased; I just go about my business, back to normal. But as soon as I saw HIM, its like my whole body just exhaled, I felt at peace… weird I know, if only I could make you guys feel exactly what I’m talking about.
But its like now I can see a guy and actually connect with him, beyond words or touching or whatever, that’s what happened with ‘him’. When I can jus look at this ‘guy’ and feel like there’s no one else in the room, or when this guy smiles and its like I would do anything to see that smile again, or when he says something and I dote on every word, or even when I look at him just once but yet seem to take in all his features. I don’t know whether this is real, it could just be affection from my side but can you imagine how blissful life is for those so deeply connected. It’s like everything could be going wrong for you at that moment, but seeing that person makes everything better. I don’t know whether this will become of anything, this might be the first and last meeting between us, all I know is my view of love has changed… and it doesn’t seem as bad as I used to think.
It took so long for him to come, but in a way I’m happy it did. He text me after our meeting … he felt the same way I did, it just makes it that much more meaningful.
- Gabrielle
He came yesterday, after how many months of waiting for him to arrive. I don’t believe in love at first sight but when I saw him, I knew something had to happen between us, if we just became friends, or we became partners… I knew something had to happen. Its so hard to explain. When I used to see guys I used to get this weird feeling in my stomach and that used to happen when they were really cute, or when I hadn’t seen a guy I liked in ages or something, now… that doesn’t happen. Its like all those feelings I used to have, they’ve disappeared. But its like if I see a guy now, I can acknowledge how cute he is without being phased; I just go about my business, back to normal. But as soon as I saw HIM, its like my whole body just exhaled, I felt at peace… weird I know, if only I could make you guys feel exactly what I’m talking about.
But its like now I can see a guy and actually connect with him, beyond words or touching or whatever, that’s what happened with ‘him’. When I can jus look at this ‘guy’ and feel like there’s no one else in the room, or when this guy smiles and its like I would do anything to see that smile again, or when he says something and I dote on every word, or even when I look at him just once but yet seem to take in all his features. I don’t know whether this is real, it could just be affection from my side but can you imagine how blissful life is for those so deeply connected. It’s like everything could be going wrong for you at that moment, but seeing that person makes everything better. I don’t know whether this will become of anything, this might be the first and last meeting between us, all I know is my view of love has changed… and it doesn’t seem as bad as I used to think.
It took so long for him to come, but in a way I’m happy it did. He text me after our meeting … he felt the same way I did, it just makes it that much more meaningful.
- Gabrielle
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
SexyBack Exclusive...
I promised you guys that as soon as it was out it would be on the site....so here it is. I have'nt had a chance to look @ it yet so i cant comment, but you lot can...Enjoy!
- Ms TooFly
Monday, July 24, 2006
The TooFly Review...
Method Man is back with a new album "4:21...The Day After" released on 29th August. The album features special guest appearances from Fat Joe, Styles P, Ginuwine and Redman with production by RZA, Erick Sermon, Scott Storch.
Eric Sermon provided the beat for the first single, "Say" featuring Lauryn Hill. This track is basically Method Man addressing critics, fickle fans and haters. Personally i'm loving this song, I swear I've been playing it non-stop. Im so happy to hear some new material from Lauryn Hill as well and cant wait for her to release a new album.
Enjoy...
Method Man Feat. Lauryn Hill - "Say"
P.S. Thanks to Hip Hop Ruckus for the track
- Ms TooFly
Friday, July 21, 2006
Yesterday
Yesterday was a turn of events for me. Let's start from the top:
I've been talking to this guy for a while now, I have to admit compared to the amount of time I spend concentrated on one guy, I've liked him for a long time. I mean I liked him when I started going out with my ex, I didn't act on it though because obviously I was in a relationship and I wasn't goint to be a 'cheater'.
So anyway, I was always talking to this guy, as a 'friend' but it only just heated up a few weeks back. Met up with him a few times, talked on the phone, blah blah blah... so there's me thinking I'm good to go, how wrong could I have been?
See my friends see me as the 'issue', but I'm starting to realise that it's not me at all... guys I talk to are usually on some 'pride' ish and wanna play games. Maybe I've been expecting too much from these guys but you can't help but hope that each guy you talk to will be different from the last. I hate being left in the dark, so I let you know from the get go whether I like you or not... and I expect the guy to do the same. But why is it so hard for a guy to express himself... I'm not asking you to lie to me, I'm asking you to tell me the truth. Be honest! If you don't like me, just say so. I seriously won't take offence, and I know I won't take offence because it's like me waiting around for something to develop between me and this guy and he doesnt even have feelings for me. Lol. I can't do that. I'd rather move on, as they say 'there's plenty more fish in the sea'. So why the hell is this guy... lets call him 'X' keeping me hanging around.
You're probably thinking... why don't you forget about him? Trust me, that has been an option but if I decide to make him a character of my past.. I can guarantee you he will never be in my future. Harsh, but that's the way I operate. Basically I dont want to forget about this guy, move on, and then him come back to me and express the way hes feeling. It's happened too many times... lol... actually it's the story of my life. Every guy I show interest in, they don't show me whatever they're thinking at that time, so then I move on. Then, a few months later, maybe even a year later, this guy pops out of the blue and wants to tell me he likes me... ok, so what do you want me to do about it? I really don't want this to continue. I mean how much longer can I take this? Anyway, I guess it'll stop when I get married right.... but who said I wanted to get married. Lol. OK OK... you guys know I'm playing right, of course I want to get married but why is it so much hassle to get to that point?
You know what I actually digressed from the point I was trying to make, I was supposed to talk about what happened to me yesterday. Ah well next post!
Til next time....
- Gabrielle
I've been talking to this guy for a while now, I have to admit compared to the amount of time I spend concentrated on one guy, I've liked him for a long time. I mean I liked him when I started going out with my ex, I didn't act on it though because obviously I was in a relationship and I wasn't goint to be a 'cheater'.
So anyway, I was always talking to this guy, as a 'friend' but it only just heated up a few weeks back. Met up with him a few times, talked on the phone, blah blah blah... so there's me thinking I'm good to go, how wrong could I have been?
See my friends see me as the 'issue', but I'm starting to realise that it's not me at all... guys I talk to are usually on some 'pride' ish and wanna play games. Maybe I've been expecting too much from these guys but you can't help but hope that each guy you talk to will be different from the last. I hate being left in the dark, so I let you know from the get go whether I like you or not... and I expect the guy to do the same. But why is it so hard for a guy to express himself... I'm not asking you to lie to me, I'm asking you to tell me the truth. Be honest! If you don't like me, just say so. I seriously won't take offence, and I know I won't take offence because it's like me waiting around for something to develop between me and this guy and he doesnt even have feelings for me. Lol. I can't do that. I'd rather move on, as they say 'there's plenty more fish in the sea'. So why the hell is this guy... lets call him 'X' keeping me hanging around.
You're probably thinking... why don't you forget about him? Trust me, that has been an option but if I decide to make him a character of my past.. I can guarantee you he will never be in my future. Harsh, but that's the way I operate. Basically I dont want to forget about this guy, move on, and then him come back to me and express the way hes feeling. It's happened too many times... lol... actually it's the story of my life. Every guy I show interest in, they don't show me whatever they're thinking at that time, so then I move on. Then, a few months later, maybe even a year later, this guy pops out of the blue and wants to tell me he likes me... ok, so what do you want me to do about it? I really don't want this to continue. I mean how much longer can I take this? Anyway, I guess it'll stop when I get married right.... but who said I wanted to get married. Lol. OK OK... you guys know I'm playing right, of course I want to get married but why is it so much hassle to get to that point?
You know what I actually digressed from the point I was trying to make, I was supposed to talk about what happened to me yesterday. Ah well next post!
Til next time....
- Gabrielle
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Resistance is the Key!!
Having a guy best friend is so beneficial to me especially when I'm just so clueless about 'the game theory.' LOL. Talking to him makes me feel better, just seeing his side of things lets me know how guys think. Why they behave the way they do? A lesson I've learnt from him - RESISTANCE.
I'm gonna be honest and say that Gabrielle did lose her cool a few months back. I was totally intrigued by some guy I knew, lost contact with and bumped into again. I thought he could be the ONE, I thought he could be good to me, I thought he would be the one to make me feel complete. BLAH BLAH BLAH. As I said Gabrielle lost her cool, I really did. It got to the point where I was frustrated with the guy for not showing as much interest as I was. But thinking about it, I can't blame him.
My b.f. told me that I had to lay off, play it cool. That's exactly what I did. Text, calls, emails - now don't even laugh or anything (emails were forward messages) - I just didn't forward emails to him, so yeah that's what I did.
I absolutely love my b.f. for that simple piece of info cos after I did that the guy started calling me, texting me, he even asked 'have I offended you in any way?' LOL.
The tables had turned, but by that time I was over him - you know how I am. Shame!
- Gabrielle
I'm gonna be honest and say that Gabrielle did lose her cool a few months back. I was totally intrigued by some guy I knew, lost contact with and bumped into again. I thought he could be the ONE, I thought he could be good to me, I thought he would be the one to make me feel complete. BLAH BLAH BLAH. As I said Gabrielle lost her cool, I really did. It got to the point where I was frustrated with the guy for not showing as much interest as I was. But thinking about it, I can't blame him.
My b.f. told me that I had to lay off, play it cool. That's exactly what I did. Text, calls, emails - now don't even laugh or anything (emails were forward messages) - I just didn't forward emails to him, so yeah that's what I did.
I absolutely love my b.f. for that simple piece of info cos after I did that the guy started calling me, texting me, he even asked 'have I offended you in any way?' LOL.
The tables had turned, but by that time I was over him - you know how I am. Shame!
- Gabrielle
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
The TooFly Review
Im so glad Sunshine Anderson is back, "Heard It All Before" is definately on the soundtrack to my life! This is a big tune and a much needed anthem for the ladies...shout out to Kevin for the track. Enjoy!Something I Want To Give You - Sunshine Anderson
- Ms TooFly
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Its Deja Vu
Hey People! Beyonce's next single is "Deja Vu" and the video is going to be exclusively shown on Channel 4 @ 9.00 / 10.00 pm on Friday. But i've managed to get the video here first because im fly like that...hence the name!
I think its alright...not amazing, but i know some of you will disagree. Anyway remember where you saw it first and leave a comment!!
- Ms TooFly
I think its alright...not amazing, but i know some of you will disagree. Anyway remember where you saw it first and leave a comment!!
- Ms TooFly
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Lend Me Your Ears!
picture courtesy of Funky Media...thanks!You may recognise these girls from a video we had on the site a while ago featuring Sean Paul from the YoungBloodZ called "Do it to it". Cherish are a group of sisters Farrah, Neosha and twins Felicia and Fallon they've been around for a while working with Jermaine Dupri. I've heard 3 or 4 songs that i thought were cool, but im not sure if they have that "staying power" to be the next big girl group. Mainly because their sound is so typical of what is happening right now and i dont really see any originality. But whatever, they might come with something that will blow me away...im just not seeing it yet. Anyway check it for yourself...
"Unappreciated"
"Show and Tell"
So the NinaSky girls are back with a second album...cant say i missed them. Sorry but they didnt really do anything for me. This song explains my feelings towards them, i mean they always seem to jump on the bandwagon of what is selling big at that particular time. What happened to being different, fresh and funky???...because i know a few of you like them i put their new track up featuring Rick Ross. I am too nice!
"Flippin' That"
Missez is another new girl group comprised of 3 members Tomi, Keysha and Rashe'. They're getting heavy rotation in the US with the track "Love Song" featuring Pimp C...nice track but i could of done without hearing Pimp C. They claim to be what music is missing, check out their possible next release "Girl To Get" and make your own descison."Girl To Get"
She was featured in Lil Flip's Summer anthem "Sunshine". Well, the girl is now working on her debut album and is signed to Blackground Records (Jojo, Toni Braxton...). Im happy that shes making moves to be more than just a featured artist, shes got a good production team behind her and should do really well."I Give U My Heart"
"I'm Gone"
"Read My Mind"
"U Can't Handle This"
Bonus Tracks:
Marques Houston...is gonna release a third album later this year, this could be the first single off it.
"Like This" Featuring Yung Joc
Janet Jackson is 20 years old again!....im really lookin forward to her new album. Her comeback is gonna be huge!
"Call On Me" Featuring Nelly
The Clipse are back, you've seen the video on our playlist...enjoy!
"Mr Me Too", The Clipse
Remember Zena? she was in Mis-Teeq when they first came out and left the group before they scored their first hit...Yes? well she decided she wanted to go solo, and teamed with producers RedZone and Full Crew (among others) and made an album...yeah it was news to me too. This was because it was only on Japanese release (pissed). Well 1, 2 step Ciara co-wrote track 3 and 5, and even did background vocals on 3. But ill talk about that more in my next post and if your nice to me i might even post the album.
Peace
- Ms TooFly
Fly Video!!
Ms Dynamite has returned with a reggae influenced tune, "When I Fall in Love"....i miss her as a emcee, but it seems the singing thing is working for her. Not really a fan of her singing voice but shes still fly and so is this video.
Enjoy!
- Ms TooFly
Enjoy!
- Ms TooFly
Monday, July 10, 2006
Brand New Outkast...
Hey People! Hot, new Outkast tracks for ya...its coming out on the soundtrack for their new film "Idlewild" (click to watch the trailer). It looks really good but you know it'll take forever to come over here! I've had the songs for a while..but for some reason i only got time to post it now. My personal favourite is Big Boi's "Morris Brown"
But im still loving Andre with "Idelwild Blues"
P.S. If you want you think your music is fly enough to be on this site or the soon coming.."TooFly Experience". Send us an email by going on our profile.
Peace
- Ms TooFly
Sunday, July 09, 2006
The TooFly Review
Do you now who Keri Hilson is?...err nah? You might not recognise her name but you've definately heard her music. Shes written for the likes of Mary J Blige, Ciara, Usher, Pussycat Dolls, Avant, Kelly Rowland, Justin Timberlake the list goes on. You might remember her featuring on Xzibit's "Hey Now (Mean Muggin')", she also had a cameo appearance on Nelly Futardo's hot track "Promiscuous Girl". Shes signed to Timbaland's label Mosley Music Group which is in association with Interscope Records. From what i'be heard so far i think shes gonna have a really fly album. This particular track is a slow tempo one but im feeling her style & looking forward to hearing more from her.
"Come Clean" - Keri Hilson
So its been nearly four years since the release of his debut solo album, "Justified", now he is back with a new album with production from hot producers Rick Rubin, Will.I.Am and Timberland entitled..."FutureSex/LoveSounds",
The first single is called "Sexy Back"
It's got a very sexy, electronic, and retro sort of feel. It's also a bit left-field for what's topping the charts these days, im pretty sure that there's gonna be alot of hype over the release of this album.
Anyway I hear that he has filmed the video to this track in Barcelona....as soon as its out you know it'll be on this site!
"Sexy Back" - Justin Timberlake
I've been waiting forever (ok...2 Looong years!) for the follow up to Lyfe Jennings debut album "Lyfe 268-192," that album was on heavy rotation for a good 6 months! Well im pleased to say that August 15th is the release date for his sophomore album, "The Phoenix." The album includes a new version of Tupac's anthem "Keep Ya Head Up" and the first single release will be "S.E.X.". Im happy about this because i love this track. The lyrically content has a really important message for young girls and women in general.
"I've wanted to write this song for a long time," Jennings previously told Billboard.com of the track. "[It's about girls] being confused by all the sudden attention when they start developing physically but not mentally."
"S.E.X." - Lyfe
Bonus Tracks:
- Amerie
"Some Like It"
- Pharoache Monach
"We Must Be In Love"
"Lets Go"
The tracks are only up for a limited time
- Ms TooFly
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
"Breaking Up Is Hard To Do"....Maybe Not
Hey people!!...have you ever gone through a break up and needed music that completely expressed your situation and feelings?...
Well a friend of mine did and to help him feel better we both created a list for the top break up songs ever made. You can download a few of the tracks...just click on the title.
"How I Feel",Brandy -Aphrodisiac
Is he or she not as attentive as they used to be. They stopped returning phone calls, stopped spending that quality time that’s necessary for a relationship to work. Well seems like you may be headed for a break up.
“You Used To Be So Attentive
Call Me At Least Twice A Day
But Now I Have No Support, No Incentive
To Keep Me Lovin You This Way”
"Emotional Rollercoaster" , Vivian Green
Its up its down, basically you never really know where you are with that special one. But you do know that your not happy...Vivica Knows too.
"Yesterday I told myself I was gonna be ok.
Gonna start a new day be truely happy
I was gonna take control of me
but eventually reality hit me
mentally, physically, emotionally
and I opened my eyes and realised
That I was still be taken for constant ride"
"Pleasure and Pain", 112 -112
Is your loved one different? Are there more bad times than good ones?...
“Why do you make me feel this way
Feeling betrayed, feeling pushed away
Why do you make me feel so bad
Feeling so hurt, feeling so sad
What have I done to make you turn
I'm feeling so lost, I'm feeling so burned
If you really cared you'd make a change
So I could feel the pleasure and not the pain”
"Busted", Isley Brothers - Body Kiss
Its like an episode of that dodgy US show "Cheaters" and you've been caught with your pants down...lol. Or you know that they're lying because nothing they say makes any sense.
"Now earlier (hmmm) you said dancing (uhhh)
But when I just asked (hmmm) you said shopping (uhhh)
Tell me which one you were doing
(Oh baby I must be confused)
Yeah right you real confused"
"Seperated", Usher
It’s just not working out no matter what you do. You’ve come to the understanding that you’ll never get it together and you realise that you’re better off apart.
“ Why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life
And I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well
And I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off...separated”
"Love’s a Game" , Marques Houston - MH
Is love a game that you just can’t seem to win.
“loves a game
I played and lost
should have learned my lesson yesterday
when yesterday was far away
and loves a game
I payed the cost
should have learned my lesson yesterday
but yesterday was so so far away”
"Stay or Leave" , Dave Matthews Band
It’s over. . .you don’t want it to be. . .but it is. That special Person is leaving and you know that you shouldn’t stop them because your time together has finally ended. This song speaks to a “good” breakup (if there is such a thing) Here’s a little insight. . .
“Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good,
as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did”
"Through With You", Maroon 5 - Songs About Jane
Have you lost the trust in your relationship? Do you not believe the sweet words of love your he /she says? Are you just TIRED of having to deal with it?
“Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour
waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all”
"Try It On My Own", Whitney Houston
Are you tired of depending on the same dead-end relationship? Has that relationship made you into someone you’re not? Are you ready to move forward and not look back.
“It's over now
I can't go back to living through your eyes
Too many lies
And if you don’t know by now
I can’t go back to being someone else
not anymore
I never had the chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control”
"Can’t Make You Love Me", This song has several artists that sing it . . .I prefer the Prince and Will Downing version. . .but if you’re into country music Bonnie Raitt also has a version
Have you tried everything? You’ve used all your resources yet you feel the person you love isn’t affected?
“I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
something it won't
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
Cause I can't make you love me"
if you don’t”
"I Wish I Wasn’t", Heather Headley
Ladies is he hanging out more and taking care of home less? Do you want to leave but you’re torn because you just love the man so much? Heather Headley has been there too...
”when you touch me my heart melts
And everything you did wrong I forget
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you that’ why I’m so mad
Now I’m drowning in disappointment,
and it’s hard for me to even look at you”
"If", Destiny’s Child
Are you fed up and refuse to take it anymore? Fed up with all the drama that’s been going on in your current relationship? Do you want to tell that person that they’re going to miss you when you’re gone.
“If you don’t know
Now you know you’re gonna miss (my love)
And I ain’t stressing bout a dog gone thing
Cuz I was true when I gave you (my love)
My love.
If you search you will never find another love like (my love)
You’re gonna miss me.
I ain’t got time while you sit around and play with my (my love)
My love.”
"Maybe Just Maybe", Lemar - Time To Grow
This break up might be a mistake...if you try you just might work it out. No, you made the right decision...right??
"Maybe this was meant to be
Maybe we should try and see
Maybe just maybe it's as far as we should go
Maybe it's a big mistake
Maybe we should walk away
Maybe just maybe we'll never know"
"Ain’t Gonna Beg You", Fantasia
Your always having to work the hardest to make it work...constantly being tested and having to prove yourself.
“Every time I need someone to be there when I had me one of them crazy days
(I aint gon beg you)
Everytime I want someone to treat me like they always said they were gonna treat me like
(I aint gon beg you)
cause I let you slide before
but I see you aint gon learn
since you like to play with fire
then I'ma let us burn
boy you (aint nothin)
gon miss (my lovin)
the last time was the last time
so I'm through with you”
"I Miss You", Boys II Men
You refuse to believe that your love can just end and you still think they're coming back...
"Is it turning over this time
Have we really changed our minds about each other's love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refuse to believe
That you don't care"
"Someone", JS
STILL in a dead end relationship. . . but you’re seeing someone else who treats you like a queen or a king?
“Now baby, you used to introduce me
To the finer thangs
The passion that we shared was
Straight off the chain
Thought I would never feel that way again
Convinced myself I was to blame
(He) touches me like you used to do
(And he) loves me like you used to do
(Baby) he wants to replace you
And I gotta do what I gotta do
I'm sorry”
"I Hate U",, Prince - The Gold Experience
You have a love/hate relationship with the man or woman in your life. They do things to you but you constantly forgive. You love them dearly but you HATE the things they do.
“Did U do 2 your other men
The same things that U did 2 me?
Right now I hate U so much
I wanna make love
until U see
That it's killin' me baby
2 be without U
Cuz all I ever wanted 2 do
was 2 be with U
I hate U
because I love U
But I can't love U
because I hate U...”
"Liar Liar", Latocha Scott - Best Man Soundtrack
He said he’d always be true. . . but guess what he lied. Are you going crazy because your "man" cheated? Latocha Scott knows your pain. . .
"Listen to the sound of me breaking down, down, down
Can't you hear me losing my mind?
Everything that's everything is nothing
And I can't tell your truth from your lies
This is the sound of me breaking down, down, down
Over and over again in my head
You're a liar, a liar, a liar"
"Ex Factor", Lauryn Hill - The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill
Sometimes it's just TOO hard to let it go. You find yourself in major conflict. . . heart saying one thing, mind saying another. We've all been there...
"It could all be so simple
But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will"
"Anything But Down", Sheryl Crow
You love them however your relationship is unhealthy, you never get a lift from being around him or her.
"You are a raging sea
I pull myself out everyday
I plea insanity
Cause I can't leave
but I can't stay
You say, won't you come find me
and yes is what I say
You don't bring me anything but down
You don't bring me anything but down
Everything is crashing to the ground"
More Break-up Songs
Almost Doesn’t Count- Brandy
Doin Just Fine- Boyz II Men
End of the Road- Boyz II Men
Give Me One Reason- Tracy Chapman
Hit The Road Jack- Ray Charles
I Can’t Sleep- R Kelly
Love Takes Time- Mariah Carey
Everybody Hurts- REM
When It’s Over- Sugar Ray
Me Myself and I- Beyonce
After The Love Has Gone- Earth Wind and Fire
Used To Be My Girl- Ojays
Aint No Sunshine- Bill Withers
Yester-me Yester-you Yesterday- Stevie Wonder
Charlene -Anthony Hamilton
This is only a few songs that we came up with, add any songs that you think should be included.
Enjoy!
P.S. Sound Files only stay up for 7 days
- SistaLova
Well a friend of mine did and to help him feel better we both created a list for the top break up songs ever made. You can download a few of the tracks...just click on the title.
"How I Feel",Brandy -Aphrodisiac
Is he or she not as attentive as they used to be. They stopped returning phone calls, stopped spending that quality time that’s necessary for a relationship to work. Well seems like you may be headed for a break up.
“You Used To Be So Attentive
Call Me At Least Twice A Day
But Now I Have No Support, No Incentive
To Keep Me Lovin You This Way”
"Emotional Rollercoaster" , Vivian Green
Its up its down, basically you never really know where you are with that special one. But you do know that your not happy...Vivica Knows too.
"Yesterday I told myself I was gonna be ok.
Gonna start a new day be truely happy
I was gonna take control of me
but eventually reality hit me
mentally, physically, emotionally
and I opened my eyes and realised
That I was still be taken for constant ride"
"Pleasure and Pain", 112 -112
Is your loved one different? Are there more bad times than good ones?...
“Why do you make me feel this way
Feeling betrayed, feeling pushed away
Why do you make me feel so bad
Feeling so hurt, feeling so sad
What have I done to make you turn
I'm feeling so lost, I'm feeling so burned
If you really cared you'd make a change
So I could feel the pleasure and not the pain”
"Busted", Isley Brothers - Body Kiss
Its like an episode of that dodgy US show "Cheaters" and you've been caught with your pants down...lol. Or you know that they're lying because nothing they say makes any sense.
"Now earlier (hmmm) you said dancing (uhhh)
But when I just asked (hmmm) you said shopping (uhhh)
Tell me which one you were doing
(Oh baby I must be confused)
Yeah right you real confused"
"Seperated", Usher
It’s just not working out no matter what you do. You’ve come to the understanding that you’ll never get it together and you realise that you’re better off apart.
“ Why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life
And I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well
And I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off...separated”
"Love’s a Game" , Marques Houston - MH
Is love a game that you just can’t seem to win.
“loves a game
I played and lost
should have learned my lesson yesterday
when yesterday was far away
and loves a game
I payed the cost
should have learned my lesson yesterday
but yesterday was so so far away”
"Stay or Leave" , Dave Matthews Band
It’s over. . .you don’t want it to be. . .but it is. That special Person is leaving and you know that you shouldn’t stop them because your time together has finally ended. This song speaks to a “good” breakup (if there is such a thing) Here’s a little insight. . .
“Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you should
It was good,
as good goes
Stay or leave
I want you not to go
But you did”
"Through With You", Maroon 5 - Songs About Jane
Have you lost the trust in your relationship? Do you not believe the sweet words of love your he /she says? Are you just TIRED of having to deal with it?
“Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour
waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all”
"Try It On My Own", Whitney Houston
Are you tired of depending on the same dead-end relationship? Has that relationship made you into someone you’re not? Are you ready to move forward and not look back.
“It's over now
I can't go back to living through your eyes
Too many lies
And if you don’t know by now
I can’t go back to being someone else
not anymore
I never had the chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control”
"Can’t Make You Love Me", This song has several artists that sing it . . .I prefer the Prince and Will Downing version. . .but if you’re into country music Bonnie Raitt also has a version
Have you tried everything? You’ve used all your resources yet you feel the person you love isn’t affected?
“I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
something it won't
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
Cause I can't make you love me"
if you don’t”
"I Wish I Wasn’t", Heather Headley
Ladies is he hanging out more and taking care of home less? Do you want to leave but you’re torn because you just love the man so much? Heather Headley has been there too...
”when you touch me my heart melts
And everything you did wrong I forget
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you that’ why I’m so mad
Now I’m drowning in disappointment,
and it’s hard for me to even look at you”
"If", Destiny’s Child
Are you fed up and refuse to take it anymore? Fed up with all the drama that’s been going on in your current relationship? Do you want to tell that person that they’re going to miss you when you’re gone.
“If you don’t know
Now you know you’re gonna miss (my love)
And I ain’t stressing bout a dog gone thing
Cuz I was true when I gave you (my love)
My love.
If you search you will never find another love like (my love)
You’re gonna miss me.
I ain’t got time while you sit around and play with my (my love)
My love.”
"Maybe Just Maybe", Lemar - Time To Grow
This break up might be a mistake...if you try you just might work it out. No, you made the right decision...right??
"Maybe this was meant to be
Maybe we should try and see
Maybe just maybe it's as far as we should go
Maybe it's a big mistake
Maybe we should walk away
Maybe just maybe we'll never know"
"Ain’t Gonna Beg You", Fantasia
Your always having to work the hardest to make it work...constantly being tested and having to prove yourself.
“Every time I need someone to be there when I had me one of them crazy days
(I aint gon beg you)
Everytime I want someone to treat me like they always said they were gonna treat me like
(I aint gon beg you)
cause I let you slide before
but I see you aint gon learn
since you like to play with fire
then I'ma let us burn
boy you (aint nothin)
gon miss (my lovin)
the last time was the last time
so I'm through with you”
"I Miss You", Boys II Men
You refuse to believe that your love can just end and you still think they're coming back...
"Is it turning over this time
Have we really changed our minds about each other's love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refuse to believe
That you don't care"
"Someone", JS
STILL in a dead end relationship. . . but you’re seeing someone else who treats you like a queen or a king?
“Now baby, you used to introduce me
To the finer thangs
The passion that we shared was
Straight off the chain
Thought I would never feel that way again
Convinced myself I was to blame
(He) touches me like you used to do
(And he) loves me like you used to do
(Baby) he wants to replace you
And I gotta do what I gotta do
I'm sorry”
"I Hate U",, Prince - The Gold Experience
You have a love/hate relationship with the man or woman in your life. They do things to you but you constantly forgive. You love them dearly but you HATE the things they do.
“Did U do 2 your other men
The same things that U did 2 me?
Right now I hate U so much
I wanna make love
until U see
That it's killin' me baby
2 be without U
Cuz all I ever wanted 2 do
was 2 be with U
I hate U
because I love U
But I can't love U
because I hate U...”
"Liar Liar", Latocha Scott - Best Man Soundtrack
He said he’d always be true. . . but guess what he lied. Are you going crazy because your "man" cheated? Latocha Scott knows your pain. . .
"Listen to the sound of me breaking down, down, down
Can't you hear me losing my mind?
Everything that's everything is nothing
And I can't tell your truth from your lies
This is the sound of me breaking down, down, down
Over and over again in my head
You're a liar, a liar, a liar"
"Ex Factor", Lauryn Hill - The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill
Sometimes it's just TOO hard to let it go. You find yourself in major conflict. . . heart saying one thing, mind saying another. We've all been there...
"It could all be so simple
But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will"
"Anything But Down", Sheryl Crow
You love them however your relationship is unhealthy, you never get a lift from being around him or her.
"You are a raging sea
I pull myself out everyday
I plea insanity
Cause I can't leave
but I can't stay
You say, won't you come find me
and yes is what I say
You don't bring me anything but down
You don't bring me anything but down
Everything is crashing to the ground"
More Break-up Songs
Almost Doesn’t Count- Brandy
Doin Just Fine- Boyz II Men
End of the Road- Boyz II Men
Give Me One Reason- Tracy Chapman
Hit The Road Jack- Ray Charles
I Can’t Sleep- R Kelly
Love Takes Time- Mariah Carey
Everybody Hurts- REM
When It’s Over- Sugar Ray
Me Myself and I- Beyonce
After The Love Has Gone- Earth Wind and Fire
Used To Be My Girl- Ojays
Aint No Sunshine- Bill Withers
Yester-me Yester-you Yesterday- Stevie Wonder
Charlene -Anthony Hamilton
This is only a few songs that we came up with, add any songs that you think should be included.
Enjoy!
P.S. Sound Files only stay up for 7 days
- SistaLova
Monday, July 03, 2006
Feelings of my Past
I always feel like I make you unhappy
Like I'm not fully pleasing you
Its upsetting 'cos I really want to
But I don't know whether I'm capable
of looking after and pleasing you in
the way you desire.
There's always something I'm doing wrong
There's always something I'm being corrected on
I feel like you're expecting me to be
Someone I'm not
Someone I haven't developed into yet
I feel so much pressure on me
And its suffocating
I can't stand not getting things right
And it seems like I'm always getting
it wrong.
Forever being corrected
Forever being judged for what I'm not doing
By you and your close friends.
I feel like I'm being subjected
to this because....
Because I don't know
But it's like I thought I was doing good
And I actually think I did more harm.
In all honesty I think your friends can
look after you far better than I can.
Its evident in the way you talk about them
and the way they look after you.
My name is GABRIELLE... soon to be 20
and truly I think you expect much more of me
then what I actually am
or what I can actually do for you.
Overall I feel like I'm far from
pleasing you,
upsetting you rather.
And that upsets me.
And I don't know whether I
Can carry on feeling like I
have no purpose or no
significance.
You have everything you need
Friends, really good friends who
Love you
And I can't measure up.
I don't think I measure up
I'm trying so hard, I AM.
Its just so hard for me to
show affection through my actions.
And I don't want you to feel like
I'm a burden anymore
I want you to be happy.
Thats my heart desire, for you to be happy.
And I don't think I'm doing that
I don't think I can make you happy.
Maybe I still have some growing to do.
I dont know what it is,
I just want you to be happy.
I wrote this to my ex, never showed it to him though, found it whilst cleaning out my room. Made me sit down and reminisce, brought back memories of exactly what I was going through, exactly what I was feeling... just took me back to a 'Gabrielle' I no longer want to know, took me back to a 'Gabrielle' I buried a while ago. Just thought to share... you know how I do.
- Gabrielle x
Like I'm not fully pleasing you
Its upsetting 'cos I really want to
But I don't know whether I'm capable
of looking after and pleasing you in
the way you desire.
There's always something I'm doing wrong
There's always something I'm being corrected on
I feel like you're expecting me to be
Someone I'm not
Someone I haven't developed into yet
I feel so much pressure on me
And its suffocating
I can't stand not getting things right
And it seems like I'm always getting
it wrong.
Forever being corrected
Forever being judged for what I'm not doing
By you and your close friends.
I feel like I'm being subjected
to this because....
Because I don't know
But it's like I thought I was doing good
And I actually think I did more harm.
In all honesty I think your friends can
look after you far better than I can.
Its evident in the way you talk about them
and the way they look after you.
My name is GABRIELLE... soon to be 20
and truly I think you expect much more of me
then what I actually am
or what I can actually do for you.
Overall I feel like I'm far from
pleasing you,
upsetting you rather.
And that upsets me.
And I don't know whether I
Can carry on feeling like I
have no purpose or no
significance.
You have everything you need
Friends, really good friends who
Love you
And I can't measure up.
I don't think I measure up
I'm trying so hard, I AM.
Its just so hard for me to
show affection through my actions.
And I don't want you to feel like
I'm a burden anymore
I want you to be happy.
Thats my heart desire, for you to be happy.
And I don't think I'm doing that
I don't think I can make you happy.
Maybe I still have some growing to do.
I dont know what it is,
I just want you to be happy.
I wrote this to my ex, never showed it to him though, found it whilst cleaning out my room. Made me sit down and reminisce, brought back memories of exactly what I was going through, exactly what I was feeling... just took me back to a 'Gabrielle' I no longer want to know, took me back to a 'Gabrielle' I buried a while ago. Just thought to share... you know how I do.
- Gabrielle x
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Presenting the Toofly Experience......
Hey people, as you know over the past 3 or 4 months a few changes have happened on this site e.g. adding the music videos...basically changing the whole layout.
Well being the fly group of divas that we are. A few members of the team have come together to create an additional blog that focuses on Music and fashion. The site is still under construction, but we will be doing a few music and fashion reviews in the upcoming weeks on this site.
So if you have any music that you wanna promote or have a good eye for fashion, just go on our profile and send us an email.
Peace
*If you are having problems sending us certain music files, send it to us @ www.myspace.com/mstoofly*
- AfroDivas
Well being the fly group of divas that we are. A few members of the team have come together to create an additional blog that focuses on Music and fashion. The site is still under construction, but we will be doing a few music and fashion reviews in the upcoming weeks on this site.
So if you have any music that you wanna promote or have a good eye for fashion, just go on our profile and send us an email.
Peace
*If you are having problems sending us certain music files, send it to us @ www.myspace.com/mstoofly*
- AfroDivas
Friday, June 23, 2006
Just thinking...
So I've had a lot of time to think, a lot of time to reminisce and look back on the way I've grown, mistakes I've made etc. Having recently just opened my eyes, no longer walking around with my eyes wide shut.
This growth, sudden sense of maturity came about whilst reading an urban novel. The actual novel didn't catch my eye or make me sit up and pay attention. Its lack of creativity and constant stereotypes is exactly what urged me to mature.
The book was filled with immature connotations of success and a limited view on what people in the 'ghetto' see as success. Drugs, guns, sex etc and yes its common but its not the be all and end all.
So anyway, this book did put across a few good points which did make me look deeper into my perception of things. Sit still for like 5-10 minutes and see where your mind takes you. I did that exercise and found myself thinking about friends, family, money and soulmates. In just those 10 minutes I was thinking about nearly everything under the sun.
FRIENDS - I actually only have a few. Gabrielle has only ever known numbers. The more friends, the better but out of those people not even half of them would have my back like I have theirs. Sad init, but its reality. How many of us are stuck in dead end friendships?
FAMILY - Outside of my immediate family, I don't have any. I have like 3 cousins that I see regularly but other aunts, uncles and cousins are disregarded. My dad was one child out of 8, and yet I haven't seen my cousins since I was 12 (nearly 8 yrs ago). People move on, so have I.
MONEY - As you know money is the root of all evil, but without it, what can you achieve? I mean the reason why we're going through the education system is to make sure we live comfortably in the future. How would that be possible without money? Obviously I know that God can make anything happen but all these things I'm mentioning are things I thought about in 10 mins.
SOULMATES - Constantly reminded that it doesn't matter how long a couple are together, if you're not meant to be together... you won't
Just thinking...
- Gabrielle
This growth, sudden sense of maturity came about whilst reading an urban novel. The actual novel didn't catch my eye or make me sit up and pay attention. Its lack of creativity and constant stereotypes is exactly what urged me to mature.
The book was filled with immature connotations of success and a limited view on what people in the 'ghetto' see as success. Drugs, guns, sex etc and yes its common but its not the be all and end all.
So anyway, this book did put across a few good points which did make me look deeper into my perception of things. Sit still for like 5-10 minutes and see where your mind takes you. I did that exercise and found myself thinking about friends, family, money and soulmates. In just those 10 minutes I was thinking about nearly everything under the sun.
FRIENDS - I actually only have a few. Gabrielle has only ever known numbers. The more friends, the better but out of those people not even half of them would have my back like I have theirs. Sad init, but its reality. How many of us are stuck in dead end friendships?
FAMILY - Outside of my immediate family, I don't have any. I have like 3 cousins that I see regularly but other aunts, uncles and cousins are disregarded. My dad was one child out of 8, and yet I haven't seen my cousins since I was 12 (nearly 8 yrs ago). People move on, so have I.
MONEY - As you know money is the root of all evil, but without it, what can you achieve? I mean the reason why we're going through the education system is to make sure we live comfortably in the future. How would that be possible without money? Obviously I know that God can make anything happen but all these things I'm mentioning are things I thought about in 10 mins.
SOULMATES - Constantly reminded that it doesn't matter how long a couple are together, if you're not meant to be together... you won't
Just thinking...
- Gabrielle
Thursday, June 15, 2006
So Have You Ever??
Have you ever been in love?
I mean............. LOVE, love?
Not no little year 7 crush, hidin' your face so
SHE
dont see you blush type of love.
I'm talkin' bout LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUVE
the type to knock you out cold in broad daylight
the type that sometimes makes you want to FIGHT
cause the bite can get too bitter
making you litter your thoughts with crap you NEVER EVER would have
bought if it was being sold.
bold love, leaving you naked, wishing your mind can FAKE IT
cause in the end you know your little old heart won't be able to TAKE IT
type of love....
Well,
This girl...this woman....chick, whateva you wanna call her
Anyway,
this......woman, this...stupid girl had me.
I mean,
this girl...I loved her like I love music,
loved her like I love breathin',
like I love breakfast.
Like breakfast, man!! Fucking eatin'!!!
and, as sure as my heart was beatin'.......it felt, right.
I'd close my eyes and still see bright lights,
No lie. When thinking of us, I'd picture grandkids.
yes....Grandkids!!
In my mind, we were like twin trains on the same track, heading towards
each other at tremendous speed, destined for collison.
I envisioned a crash.
A crash with a blast intense enough to split the fuckin' sun in half.
Sparks would fly, and we would lie in the aftermath,
her I and she me, we'd...........damn. We'd be.........happy.
But,
the tracks.....somehow they didn't connect
Maybe my wiring was faulty,
But, I gave my all, you can't fault me,
if not me.......... then where should fault be???
Then I thought,
Love probably played a trick
Wanted to see what good old BruthaDiva would do when things got thick.
And....honestly, I PANICKED
My thoughts, my actions, MANIC.
I didnt know what to do,
and at night, her shadow GREW. Taunting me with mirages, massauges,
and the PAIN.......actually I don't really wanna talk about the pain.
This stupid chick, though.
I....I really, honestly still think that we could....
Actually, it's not even could, it's kind of more like should....
This love shit, man, it's funny.
Its like a fuckin' disease, one that stays forever...without a cure
Am I bitter? Yes and No.
I mean, I still love her flow
but......I don't know where to go from here.
It aint like breakfast no more, but with time it could be,
and again, it...it really seems like it almost SHOULD be.
Damn.......Love is love, for real. It aint nothing else.
I'm a ask ya'll again, and be real this time........
Have you ever been in love?
- BruthaDiva
I mean............. LOVE, love?
Not no little year 7 crush, hidin' your face so
SHE
dont see you blush type of love.
I'm talkin' bout LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUVE
the type to knock you out cold in broad daylight
the type that sometimes makes you want to FIGHT
cause the bite can get too bitter
making you litter your thoughts with crap you NEVER EVER would have
bought if it was being sold.
bold love, leaving you naked, wishing your mind can FAKE IT
cause in the end you know your little old heart won't be able to TAKE IT
type of love....
Well,
This girl...this woman....chick, whateva you wanna call her
Anyway,
this......woman, this...stupid girl had me.
I mean,
this girl...I loved her like I love music,
loved her like I love breathin',
like I love breakfast.
Like breakfast, man!! Fucking eatin'!!!
and, as sure as my heart was beatin'.......it felt, right.
I'd close my eyes and still see bright lights,
No lie. When thinking of us, I'd picture grandkids.
yes....Grandkids!!
In my mind, we were like twin trains on the same track, heading towards
each other at tremendous speed, destined for collison.
I envisioned a crash.
A crash with a blast intense enough to split the fuckin' sun in half.
Sparks would fly, and we would lie in the aftermath,
her I and she me, we'd...........damn. We'd be.........happy.
But,
the tracks.....somehow they didn't connect
Maybe my wiring was faulty,
But, I gave my all, you can't fault me,
if not me.......... then where should fault be???
Then I thought,
Love probably played a trick
Wanted to see what good old BruthaDiva would do when things got thick.
And....honestly, I PANICKED
My thoughts, my actions, MANIC.
I didnt know what to do,
and at night, her shadow GREW. Taunting me with mirages, massauges,
and the PAIN.......actually I don't really wanna talk about the pain.
This stupid chick, though.
I....I really, honestly still think that we could....
Actually, it's not even could, it's kind of more like should....
This love shit, man, it's funny.
Its like a fuckin' disease, one that stays forever...without a cure
Am I bitter? Yes and No.
I mean, I still love her flow
but......I don't know where to go from here.
It aint like breakfast no more, but with time it could be,
and again, it...it really seems like it almost SHOULD be.
Damn.......Love is love, for real. It aint nothing else.
I'm a ask ya'll again, and be real this time........
Have you ever been in love?
- BruthaDiva
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
I'm Back!
WOW! I never realised actually how dependant I am on my laptop, those few weeks felt like a lifetime. Thank God exams are over, now the fun can begin.
1st > That guy didn't call me. In fact I didn't hear a word from him at all, a day before the date, on the date and after. The cheek! I already told you guys I wasn't as excited as I wanted to be so honestly it didn't shock me. It just baffled me I guess. I mean why would this guy volunteer up a day for us to go out but then not call. But hey whatever, old news. He called me like a week or two after, oh yeah, I do believe I let that phone ring. NEXT !!
2nd > Been talking to this guy I met in a bar, handsome and everything but I'm just not feeling him like that, I mean its like talking to my friend who lives down the road from me, all just general conversation. I'm just not connected to him. But maybe I'm not concerned about him 'cos he looks like a cross between my ex and some other guy I knew in college. Basically they all just kinda look alike. Puts me off in a way. BUT ANYWHOOOO....
3rd > Im FINALLY getting back into sync with my world. You ever feel ugly, fat, too skinny, unpopular, well that was me for the past two weeks. Just not feeling happy about myself at all and that's not me. I mean I'm not the prettiest (model type), I'm not the richest (even though I claim that for my future) and on a positive note Mother Africa has generously endowed me with a boo-tay that doesn't suit my slender figure so you'd expect a girl like me to feel content. But that wasn't the case, there was no real reason for me to be in a funk like that. But hey it's all good. I'm back in sync. I don't know why I felt like that, I'm just happy I'm back to normal now. Well, not so 'normal' but you know what I mean.
As for me and my quests, boi.... we'll just see where life takes me. I'm gonna be in LEEDS for a while, let's see what happens......
1st > That guy didn't call me. In fact I didn't hear a word from him at all, a day before the date, on the date and after. The cheek! I already told you guys I wasn't as excited as I wanted to be so honestly it didn't shock me. It just baffled me I guess. I mean why would this guy volunteer up a day for us to go out but then not call. But hey whatever, old news. He called me like a week or two after, oh yeah, I do believe I let that phone ring. NEXT !!
2nd > Been talking to this guy I met in a bar, handsome and everything but I'm just not feeling him like that, I mean its like talking to my friend who lives down the road from me, all just general conversation. I'm just not connected to him. But maybe I'm not concerned about him 'cos he looks like a cross between my ex and some other guy I knew in college. Basically they all just kinda look alike. Puts me off in a way. BUT ANYWHOOOO....
3rd > Im FINALLY getting back into sync with my world. You ever feel ugly, fat, too skinny, unpopular, well that was me for the past two weeks. Just not feeling happy about myself at all and that's not me. I mean I'm not the prettiest (model type), I'm not the richest (even though I claim that for my future) and on a positive note Mother Africa has generously endowed me with a boo-tay that doesn't suit my slender figure so you'd expect a girl like me to feel content. But that wasn't the case, there was no real reason for me to be in a funk like that. But hey it's all good. I'm back in sync. I don't know why I felt like that, I'm just happy I'm back to normal now. Well, not so 'normal' but you know what I mean.
As for me and my quests, boi.... we'll just see where life takes me. I'm gonna be in LEEDS for a while, let's see what happens......
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